Thursday, August 13, 2020

What is my process as a writer?

I am a procrastinator, I know I am a procrastinator and while I am not necessarily proud of that I have come to accept it as part of my identity. I am the person who is up until 4 am the night before the paper is due typing on my laptop with one hand and drinking my fifth (yes fifth) soy latte (with a quad shot) with the other. Arguably not the healthiest routine but it’s how I work and more specifically how I write essays.
Free writing comes easily to me. Ever since I was little I have written poetry and more recently songs too. I journal every day and find it very meditative to take time to clear my head and just dump my feelings and thoughts onto a piece of paper, it’s part of what I do for “self care”. But back to formal papers. I always find myself caught in a trap of thesis and evidence. It goes like this:
-I have one point that I get excited about trying to prove
-I formulate a killer thesis.
-I am very proud of my killer thesis
-I try to find evidence
-the evidence doesn’t quite back my arguement OR my evidence gets me excited about a new idea
-I write a new killer thesis
…repeat until the end of time or 4 am before the paper is due. I have looked and revisited this problem many times in my attempt to solve it and get some sleep for once. I have reached several conclusions, one is that I rely on my panic to get me through the paper and I let myself push it until the last minute. Sometimes I do this because I have over-scheduled my time and I simply can’t get to it and other times it is because I’m scared that I don’t really have anything to say, or more specifically I don’t know how to say it. I have relied on the formula of the five paragraph essay to get me through my late night writing sprees and without that I am interested to see how my strategies will change. All that being said I am a good writer and I can acknowledge that. My grammar is horrendous but when it comes down to it the actual writing I do is good.

One thought on “What is my process as a writer?

  1. This is a VERY relatable piece. I love your blatant honesty and realistic attitude! You seem to write effortlessly with a style that is both sophisticated and approachable. Reading your posts is like having a conversation. Your voice comes through very well!

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